Wednesday, June 30, 2004 :::
*grr*
I am NOT HAPPY w/ my REXT*3040DE quiz1 results. A couple of them were caused by my error of not having caught a few key concepts while studying the reading material. 1 was wrong b/c I changed my initial answer ("d'oh!" >_<*). & another couple of them were TRICK questions! >:|
*S I G H*
Due to the amount of demanding work & commitments that have been pre-scheduled (check online calendar for overview), I will not be making any additional (social) plans until Aug. 13. I'm sorry if I have been crabby lately. Please understand that I'm rather stressed & lacking in a lot of rest, let alone not having been able to sleep well. I might feel a little less anxious if my group members were more actively involved in our assignments, but anyway............:|
I may seem anti-social & irritated, but my negative feelings are not completely meant for you, my friends & family. Therefore, thank you for being patient & continuing to remember me.
::: posted by Babee_Piyo at 11:39:16 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004 :::
interactive calendar
I recently added a calendar, which u could access via 1 of the buttons near the top of this window. I've inputed some events & appts that I could think of for the time being if u'r interested in finding out my summer sched so far. :p I also set it, so u could add ur own events & appts to this calendar, too! Kewl, huh? :D
::: posted by Babee_Piyo at 11:04:39 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004 :::
i need help
Even though I've learned a lot (or I THOUGHT I did...) from reading the textbook, online posts, additional readings, etc., I find myself becoming rather neurotic with regards to the grades I've received & those that are pending. From what I can recall, I'm probably reacting this way b/c of my self-context: I WANT TO GET PERFECT!!! & my self-image: I'm not stupid! I read so much & felt that I studied as thoroughly as I could, but I got a C+ on the online quiz. I'm so SHOCKED & upset...I want to know what the answers for those freakin' 5 Qs that killed my mark are! How will I LEARN if I can't find out what I misunderstood?! It made me madder when I lost 0.5 on my mini essay. That's 10% lost! Didn't the instructor say that my rough draft was really good, provided more analyses, good structure...how'd I lose those marks??? *growls @ TAs* All this is causing me to micro-manage my group assignment group members. I warned them not to squeeze everything 'til the last minute...it's due today! The guy who's s'posed to proofread, organize, & submit our work...he hasn't done or said anything 'til today: he plans on doing something today...ON THE LAST DAY!! -_-* If he does a crappy job proofreading &/or compiling, &/or submits our assignment late, I'm giving him a negative mark on our group assessment. I want that full 20%! I've been dreaming of landing on the President's list since 1st yr...the unexpectant marks, the bad TAs & profs...their driving me crazy. I feel that no matter how hard I work, some of my needs r still not met & it's incredibly FRUSTRATING. I'm willing to learn everything & I demand clear, concise, knowledgeable, available criticms. I feel that I don't receive enough of these to contribute positively to my education, & it's 1 of the biggest barriers that I don't know how to punch through. >_<
I must add that I'm also feeling lots of pressure & rather irritated that I got sick & lost 2.5 wks of potential practise times. Yes, I am grateful that I'm recovering, but since this is the case, my priorities r reorganizing & I'm feeling desperate to catch up & improve in my playing ASAP. I'm afraid of disappointing my teacher. I want to show her that I can be as good as her top students. Also from getting sick & being bogged down by these 2 subjects, my poli sci readings have fallen behind. I'm sure my essay doesn't require that I reference the course materials, but what about the final? I'm at a loss of how to study & prepare for it b/c I don't exactly know what 'real' poli sci courses expect. Sure, I took a course on political art forms, but even after working so hard on the notes, trying to record EVERYTHING the teacher said, right down to the movie dialogues & scenery...a C+. Yes, an absolutely disappointing & shocking mark. So now, I'm angrily determined to work @ preventing such infuriating results. Just, how to remove the obstacle mentioned in the prev. paragraph?
::: posted by Babee_Piyo at 1:07:25 AM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004 :::
just an upd8
Alright, so as of now, I have been doing lots of pre-scheduling of work & other events. Apparently, I'm sad to say that I'm not as free as I 1st thought (even then, I predicted that I was gonna be busy, just...not this B U S Y). :| For example: when was the last time I went to the theatres? I'd hafta look back at my posts b/c I really can't remember. How did it happen that my grandma got to watch "Troy", while I haven't & have been whining to see those hot guys...? (oops...did I just spill that...*giggles* =^.^=) I also planned on attending the farewell ceremony (June 19) for my elem. gym teacher, Mr. Constable, in Apr., I think. After checking my courses' assignment sched., I'm considering on not going b/c I have a major essay (50%) due 2 wks after, as well as over 20 ch.'s of reading material! *erk* I haven't finalized my decision, yet, b/c I haven't seen him in yrs, & he was the best gym teacher I'd ever had, so I'd feel a lil regretful for not personally telling him this. Of course, I don't expect him to remember me, though...thousands of students later, how significant would I be? Plus, I must look diff than when I was in Grd. 6! Lol! (I'm so much taller &...fatter...*sob*) But as some of u might know, good teachers tend to leave a lasting good impression on their students, & if I had the chance, I would tell each 1 of them how great they were. Ok, so it's pretty obvious that most of my life has been revolving around skewl. Heck, if it wasn't skewl, it'd be work, right? *wonders what a (paid) job is like* ;p
Well, all of my social life's not entirely lost, though. So far, I've set up plans, for this Fri., to practise w/ 1 of my cuzs on a duet for my juried recital in Aug. Oh shush, it's not entirely skewlwork...I promised her that I'd eat dinner w/ & go to her fellowship after...that's kinda socializing. :) I've also planned on going to watch "Garfield" w/ Jay next Fri., but umm...I hope he won't kill me if I end up cancelling at the last min....perhaps I should warn him of this soon. *nervous laughter* In more exciting news...MY CUZ IS GETTING MARRIED IN JULY!!! *woohoo* Not the 1 I'm playing a duet w/, though...lol! This 1 is my 3rd oldest cuz & I haven't seen her in 10 yrs or so. @_@ I'll just assume that her fiance's a kewl guy & that he's the 1 she met in univ....the 1 that my aunt was gushing about to my mom a few yrs ago. *heehee* Congratz to her...maybe I'll find a hottie at the reception! *thinks of "My Big Fat Greek Wedding"* ROFL!!
O yea, btw, I'm not sure what to wear to the reception...semi-formal or formal? Anyone know about these things?
Alrighty...I think I'm done blabbering for now. Must try to sleep well for once...I need some anti-stress pills. :|
::: posted by Babee_Piyo at 1:12:47 AM
